Silence!!!!

Hi darling girl,

If you ever read this, and maybe you’ll stumble across it when you Google your name one day; this may sound really indulgent, but I wrote to you on the day I really wanted to talk to you, but you wouldn’t answer. I’ve been texting and calling you for days on end and console myself with the fact, that if you need me, you can and do call. The tables soon turn and today I really needed you. I needed to know you’re eating, that you’re safe, that you’re happy. I know I will see you real soon, but I missed you today in a kind of blurry vision and bubbly snot kind of way (I miss you every day). I couldn’t tell you, so I thought I would write it here. One day, you may read this and I could get the chance to tell you that today I needed a hug from my daughter, so tight that I could smell your hair.
Love you so much small thing,
Mum xxxxx
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38 thoughts on “Silence!!!!

  1. Oh my goodness - this post has made my heart ache. Hope you get to hug her and smell her hair real soon!! I always smell my kids ( they think I'm weird but tolerate it!!) Lisa F xxx

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  2. Oh my goodness - this post has made my heart ache! Hope you get to hug her, feed her and smell her hair real soon!! I always smell my kids ( they think I'm weird but tolerate it!!) - lots of love Lisa F xx

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  3. Oh my goodness - this post has made my heart ache. Hope you get to hug her and smell her hair real soon!! I always smell my kids ( they think I'm weird but tolerate it!!) Lisa F xxx

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  4. I have two beautiful young daughters of 16 months and 3 3/4 years and everyday I tell them that I love them and hug them close to smell their hair. I have read your other blogs concerning your daughter and she really doesn't know how lucky she is to have a mother who loves and cares for her as much as you do. I am estranged from my mother and everyday I wish I could have her back but it will never be. I now have my beautiful girls and I hope they will always be there for the hug that you so want from your daughter. I really hope that she gets in touch with you and gives you the hug you need. We all love you here in blog land. Keep your chin up chick. xxx

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  5. All you can think is “no news is good news”…when they are away all you want is them to pick up the phone, even for a minute. I have 2 grown sons with families- one here in the US and one over the pond in the UK…I just need to hear a voice.
    Chin up, be positive and lots of love. You are a wonderful person!

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  6. Oh dear you have made me do the blurry vision and bubbly snot thing, before bed now. I love your honesty about Motherhood, the love is there, your children are beautiful. I can empathise with your worry and heartache. I guess with the name 'Mom' comes a need to be strong! XXX

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  7. Oh Froogs, big hugs for you…wishing all is well with your daughter and she will contact you soon…how hard it is to know at her age that just to hear her voice would lift your heart…

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  8. Maybe I shouldn't comment on this, it was so obviously a message from you to her.

    From a Mum who cares, to a daughter who does too but shows it in different ways.

    I hope you get to hug her and smell her hair very soon and I hope she reads this and realises that Mums need hugs too, more often than our children sometimes realise .

    Love to you both.

    Sue xx

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  9. Tears are running down my cheeks, for you and for myself because I know this pain. I tell myself over and over that all will be well in the end, and I hope that this is true for both of us. Stay strong, and remain optimistic.
    xx

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  10. My problem is the total opposite. My Mother cut all communications with me some years back and I still dont know why. She also cut off her grandchildren and now has great grandchildren she has never met.

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